The Problem of Jealousy for Other Girls

Lately, my blood has been boiling over the my brain's automatic comparison between the characteristics of total strangers to that of mine. Or sometimes, I just compare everything or everyone that pops out of my head.

One thing I learned, comparing is never good. And never should've done it in the first place. The worst thing is I didn't realize I was doing it until my mood has become significantly worst over the discontentment it brought me. Why then am I not aware of it, I ask myself. Because I don't evaluate the thoughts coming from my mind and the attitude my heart has adapted from the outside influences like movies, beliefs, songs, and other people.

Now that I have recognized my emotional sickness, I may cure it the best way that I could. Thinking of it now, I think that I should probably not think bad thoughts. That's what I though of. Don't think of evil and that's it.

Well, I can't assume that it's already working but I think that the way I am now is not how I should be. And, right now, I'm not angry with myself anymore that I'd become like this because I'm just influenced and I can still fight for it.

Thinking of the reason why, in a point of our lives, we become accustomed to all the jealousy and apathy. It's because we are trained to compete. In class, there's always the valedictorian and the ordinary students. In an organization, there's always the president and the not-so-important members. In the show business, there's always the idols and the fans. No matter how the idols say, "I won't be here without you!" and acknowledge the fan's importance to them, we can't change the fact that they got the spotlight. Have you anyway thought of show business without the actors and the very important people?

I forgave myself anyway of all the getting angry with myself for being such a jerk over these days.

Things that help me to realize I'm in an okay situation after all:

1. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. Models and actors are just polished creatures that we think that they are the only beautiful creatures created by God. But if you take away the sophisticated clothing, the make-up, their confidence that came from the former things, they are only just ordinary civilians and will look like your neighbor. Anyway, that was just to express a point. And my point is, even if you don't do anything to your face or your skin color, you already look beautiful! Yes, I think you are! :)
2. Beauty is not only in the outward appearance. Some celebrities have only been beautified when they perform up in stage because they need to look presentable. So what, you ask? If you really think about it, what put them in the gorgeous appearances are their talents. They're not just beautiful in the outside and empty in the inside. That would be just disappointing. Imagine if you find your favorite store and found out they don't have stock anymore.
3. I will look better in the future. Well, this is really questionable, but considering things change and appearances change, I think it will help me a lot if I will take care of mine and not obsess over it and beautify my inside as well and balance them.

This post really is long and took me a while to write this but I guess it's worth it, anyway. :)

Do you have inner beauty and outside beauty tips?